Pampered Proboscis wrote via email "I admire your candid sharing [about your allergies and depression]. Sure, I believe getting crap out of one's self is good for one's self but it takes guts to go public in the human weakness department."
Thanks for the note, PP. I guess I sometimes feel very free communicating this way, by blog. I try to be honest in what I write, since I am a terrible liar. Writing helps me to focus and to actually think about what I am feeling at the moment.
The medz (Effexor) have helped me tremendously over the last four years. I still get depressed but I am not disabled by it. Also, the allergies really really exacerbate these bluest of blues. So when the allergies are in check, I mostly feel fine. I also don't have that ambient and near constant anxiety that was so much a part of who I was that I didn't even realize how much damage it was doing to my health.
I have no interest in being a zombie. I still want to feel my emotions. What I don't want is for them to control and harm me.
To end on an up note, we have -
Top 10 Party Games for People Over 50
1 Sag! You're It!
2 Pin the Toupee on the Bald Guy
3 20 Questions Shouted in Your Good Ear
4 Kick the Bucket
5 Red Rover, Red Rover, the Nurse Says Bend Over
6 Doc, Doc, Goose
7 Simon Says Something Incoherent
8 Musical Recliners
9 Spin the Bottle of Mylanta
10 Hide and Go Pee!
Here's one I like - Hide and Go Leave